# Chapter 3108: Carmen's Casual Notes
After picking and choosing some places, Xu Huo used the smart terminal to make reservations, and after eating, he first went to the first stop.
The Field Exhibition Hall had a limited number of people allowed in each time, so there were quite a few people waiting outside. Of course, one could also choose to watch the holographic projection on the external terminal, but since they had come all this way, more people still wanted to see Carmen Field's relics with their own eyes.
Xu Huo followed the queue inside and first saw a large banner hanging not far from the entrance, with several large characters written on it:
"Graveyard Visit, Feel Free to Make Noise."
The simulation robot dutifully explained the origin of this banner. It turned out that Carmen Field had been inspired to create it after attending a family elder's funeral when he was thirty years old. Of course, it wasn't that he disliked maintaining solemn silence at funerals, but rather that he didn't want his own funeral to be so cold and quiet.
"If I die one day, it will be a grand and worthy death. No matter what kind of death it is, it will definitely do justice to myself. I will have gotten what I wanted. What is death anyway? My family should be happy for me. Crying is so unlucky."
"These were Mr. Carmen's original words, which cannot help but make people admire his open-mindedness and the calmness with which he comprehended the true meaning of life and death at such a young age."
"Then can we make noise?" a child asked, looking up.
"Of course you can," the simulation robot replied with a smile. "This is also what Mr. Carmen hoped for."
The child, having received permission, naturally left their parents full of joy. They couldn't yet understand life, death, and sacrifice, but they greatly admired powerful people. Through constant exposure, Carmen Field naturally became the most powerful person in their eyes.
Behind the banner were the true relics of Carmen.
Some of his diaries were stored as single pages, with the first one reading: "To prevent my parents from becoming unqualified parents who peek at their child's diary, I've decided to record my feelings in this primitive way."
Xu Huo smiled and continued reading the second passage.
"My summary for today is that they are indeed unqualified parents, because they praised my younger brother in front of me and scolded me for being disobedient."
"Obedience cannot be the primary standard for educating children, and saying this will make me dislike my brother. But my brother just secretly shared half of his hidden snacks with me, which dispelled my bad mood."
"When I educate my children in the future, I definitely won't do this, and I'll tell them they can do whatever they want."
Beside this were several cartoon dolls representing him and his family.
That was one diary entry.
Xu Huo continued to the second entry.
"Today I criticized my teacher. His teaching level was very poor. I don't think he deserves his certificate as a top-tier professional, and he's even worse than the public teaching materials."
"The teacher very humbly said that with his level, he indeed couldn't teach me, so he would suggest to my parents that they find me a new teacher."
"This was my fifth private tutor."
"My parents seriously told me that they could no longer find a suitable teacher within the district and decided to teach me themselves."
"Why? It's not like they can't find a teacher from another district."
"But I still began the painful life of getting scolded before starting lessons."
"Mom and Dad don't seem very smart."
"After much deliberation (actually, I knew this three years ago when Dad was practicing object control), I believe the lack of understanding between us comes from a gap in intelligence. I've decided to forgive them, after all, innate gaps are hard to make up for—this is an objective fact. I can understand them unilaterally."
"According to a rumor from the Field family," the simulation robot said with a smile beside him, "Mr. Carmen was scolded for this diary entry and punished by copying it. As you can see here, the following several diary entries are the results of that punishment."
The subsequent diary entries were all the same content, but the handwriting was different, as if written by several different people.
"Mr. Carmen's genius had already begun to show in his childhood," the simulation robot said.
The diary then skipped a period of time, arriving at when Carmen was twelve years old.
"In today's competition, I ranked 9th. This is very good—it keeps me close to the beautiful girl in my heart while maintaining gentlemanly decorum by falling one rank behind her."
"She came to argue with me, believing that this greatly disrespected her strength and that she didn't need me to display gentlemanly decorum in such a place. She would rather lose fair and square than accept charity-like deference."
"I am ashamed. Although she is not very smart, her character far surpasses most people I've met. They can't even admit to their own weakness and mediocrity."
"I made her cry. I also cried. When I grow up, I'm going to marry her."
Following this was a supplement in completely different handwriting, with the strokes showing an adult's carefree style: "We got married."
"This beautiful girl was Mr. Carmen's first wife, Ms. Nuolinlin," the simulation robot said, sighing with genuine emotion about their relationship, and expressing regret over Nuolinlin's early death. "Ahead is the wedding attire of Mr. Carmen and Ms. Nuolinlin. This wedding attire was personally designed by Mr. Carmen."
Part of the visitors went to see the wedding attire, leaving the area in front of the diaries mostly empty.
In fact, there were only a few diary entries, not very long, and children could finish reading them quickly. The diaries mentioned only small matters, without the involvement of other Field family members. It was clear that even at this time, Carmen Field had already recognized his extraordinary talent, and he didn't become arrogant because of it. Instead, he was very skilled at handling relationships with others—one could say he had extremely high emotional and intellectual intelligence.
Even Xu Huo, who didn't know him deeply, could now appreciate the charm of this man known as the Morning Star.
Most people cannot achieve self-consistency. Having and pursuing runs through almost everyone's life. The more capable and talented a person is, the harder what they pursue may be to obtain. The pain of seeking but not finding is universal, and this can cause people who rarely encounter the word "giving up" in their lives to suffer multiplied impacts, potentially leading them "astray."
A foolish person can only create limited trouble, but it's hard to say about a smart person. A smart person who gets stuck in a dead end is even harder to predict.
And Carmen's words, "If I die, feeding the chickens counts as recycling," along with his concept of equality for all people displayed at such a young age, showed that he had long completed this subject.
He was a genius who had achieved true inner freedom.
Xu Huo skipped over the everyday items in the middle and went to the book display area.
This was a book that Carmen had flipped through during his youth. The content wasn't important, but he would casually write some of his thoughts in it. These writings were compiled and projected one by one on the screen beside it.
"Time is very much like a worm."
"The world is a cube."
"Dormant cognition."
"Skin and flesh worn on the outside, tendons and internal organs worn on the inside."